The end of 30 paintings in 30 days – collage

Today it’s time to post a collage of all the paintings done during this 30 day challenge period. I put them in the order I made them rather than how they’d best look next to eachother.

Some of them I still haven’t taken a liking to and I’ll probably rework them later. Some of them are favourites that I’ll keep at home for a while.

My biggest takeaway from this challenge is that on the days that I don’t feel like painting it doesn’t pay off to force it. I just end up with a painting that I don’t love and even if others might like the painting it’s hard to sell something you don’t feel strongly enough for. That “something’s off” feeling isn’t about feeling lazy, it’s more like not being in tune with the right thing. As if you’re a faulty instrument. Sometimes that might correct itself as the eve goes on, sometimes you just keep on playing false notes. That’s how it works for me.

Each painting took about 2 hours to make, sometimes a bit more. More time will be needed for painting borders, applying varnish, adding a hanging mechanism. A few will take more time as I rework the scene to something I love more.

I was hoping to get some of that done today since it’s a Saturday but it turns out having nothing scheduled made all the things I feel come out and I’ve spent most of today in bed. I have places to be tomorrow so maybe Sunday will be a productive day.

Day 30: Creativity Forest

It’s the last day of the 30 paintings in 30 days challenge. Tomorrow we’re all posting a collage of the paintings we’ve done. Then it’s time to go through them all, paint borders, fix minor things, add a hanging mechanism, add varnish, calculate price for some of them and distribute.

“Creativity Forest”, 8×8 inches 20×20 centimeter, acrylic painting.
Progress pics of the painting below.

It’s been a very full moon day. Somewhere in the sky is a big bright moon making people crazy.

Part of the day was lovely, loved talking about Instagram. Other parts of the day was the reason I took some time to literally scream out emotion. If I find out the little whispering people have been making issues I will shout into their faces this time, they’ve used up my patience. If they want to deal with me and have my respect they’d better talk, say what they want, because if they leave me guessing and acting weird then I stop caring about what they need, I have zero tolerance for that kind of drama. And I found out my favourite neighbour has moved, hence no more random monastery music or opportunity to overhear philosophy talk as they discuss outside on their balcony. And then I had my own version of Lucifer season 3 episode 7, except not quite so extreme. Truly, when you’ve hurled major abuses at me several times I’m done listening to what reasons might be behind them, I’m leaving. So that’s my day today. Maybe it’s the reason why the painting turned out darker in color than I had planned. Overall not a bad day but a frustrating one.

Day 27: The Most Hopeful Thought

Having issues getting a proper photo of this one. Going back and forth about if I’m actually done with it too, I’ll know better in the morning.

“The Most Hopeful Thought” – 20×20 centimeter 8×8 inches, acrylic paint.

To be honest, all my trees of hope are pretty small, saplings, they’ve been cut down a lot. Some days I can dream, though, and I can see the most beautiful of trees growing, strong and sturdy. Every life change towards the better raises questions like can I do this, am I good enough, but I do so try to ignore those thoughts and instead focus on the next step, the next practical thing, the next little small brave thing.

Just 3 more days left of this challenge. I do plan on keeping on painting regularly, just not every day, I’d swim in paintings before long.

Day 26: Joy

Sometimes things don’t turn out as expected. I loved today.

“Joy”, 20×20 centimeter 8×8 inches, acrylic paint.

I don’t want to say much, afraid I’ll jinx it or ruin something. But it was a good day. Surprising. Warm. Funny. And I don’t know, maybe I just get this one day. I’m still terribly sad inside, full of grief. But today I’m also happy. Feeling small and careful, when offered that hand I’ll take it and follow. If things seem stable and real, I’ll grow stronger.

Day 24: After Midnight

It’s been a topsy-turvy day. Temperatures dropped rapidly and triggered my fibromyalgia, like what am I, a weather station? So today I’ve been stupidly tired. Then I broke down, so much sorrow. And then it was in the middle of the night and I still had a painting to do.

“After Midnight”, 8×8 inches or 20×20 centimeter acrylic painting on canvas.

I’m so sleepy I’m painting with one eye closed. I keep finding myself squinting like a pirate and telling myself “I’m almost done”. I was already about to post the so called final version when I had this strong feeling that lanterns of some kind were missing. Below you see the version before the lanterns.

Just need to post this to the 30 paintings in 30 days challenge blog and then to facebook and then I can stop being a pirate and close both eyes and sleep.

PS: These creatures often show up in my paintings when I paint at night. Should I be concerned?

Day 20: Reward Waiting

This one kept giving problems. First some colour imbalances, then the leaves and grass were boring, some sort of drama was missing. I remembered I have some bronze paint and voilá, a result that makes me feel something!

So the bronze is a shimmery bronze acrylic paint by Reeves. Where it’s the most concentrated it’s obvious that it shimmers.

Above is the version I was going to finish with but I didn’t feel it. Moments later I was mixing in bronze paint.

On my mind today is the hope that one day all the struggles lead to a shimmery reward.

Day 19: My Kind of Music

This painting started out the way music looks. Hills and valleys of sound and quiet..

..And then I felt the need for colour and water and here we are. It’s on a box canvas (like they all are) and the borders are painted black. I’ll post more pictures once I’m putting them up for sale.

Usually I like my paintings fairly smooth, not very many visible dry strokes, but for this I wanted something rough. It called out to me: rough. And dark. But light. A mixed up kind of day, huh.

Day 18: Patronus

Have you done the Pottermore test to find out your patronus yet? I’ve been meaning to, then I forget, still haven’t gotten around to it but I’m itching to find out!

Another day of no music with painting, instead I was watching a movie about Vincent van Gogh’s life. It inspired me to paint something that felt like me. And this would be it.

Followed a friend to a fine art exhibition today. Rut Bryk’s ceramic works are quite something. I loved her earlier works with strong colours and motifs that reminded me of picture books. At the end of her life she went super geometric, all shapes. It makes me wonder if I’ll evolve into something if I keep painting. Vincent went to a looser even more impressionistic style towards the end too. I wonder if that’s the fate of my mind. How loose will I end up going? Or could the mind go the other way, into extreme details, painting huge worlds with tiny details all in ink like Manabu Ikeda? Or like Sven Nordqvist’s picture books, little critters hiding in the bushes, rooms that look like someone’s actually living there.

(I recommend checking out the artists mentioned by highlighting their name, right clicking and choose “Search Google for..”, or at least that’s how it works in Chrome.)

Now to go find out what my Patronus is.. I might need it in the dark.

Day 17: Spring!

Cards and various spirit messages keep telling me of a spring that will come. And I always sigh and wonder if that’s when I’m 60 or what? I’m getting emails about seeds and bulbs too. I have a whole bunch of seeds to plant, I should start soon. Last year’s summer was so cold that none of the echinacea grew despite my efforts to pre-grow them indoors first.

It’s difficult to capture the in real life colours of this one. It’s 3 am, it’s dark, I’m not sure I’m able to tell what the real colours are right now either. Let’s see what this looks like in the morning.