Day 23: A Dark and Stormy Night

I had this vision of a colourful scene and a woman dancing in a red dress, so I picked up my brush.. and this came out.

I guess it fits my general state of being better. Everything’s a bit hazy and dusky, the wind blows and I don’t know what will come. But oh well. Might be good stuff. Those people down there might be wizards and everything will be fine. Or it might not. Hard to tell in this dusk.

Might decide to work on the foreground a bit more to enhance the distance effect, I’ll see how it feels in the morning.

Day 22: When Doves Cry

At 5:13 pm today I got a flash of what I wanted my next painting to be. However, after attending a classical concert and getting home past 10 pm I was too exhausted for detail work. Maybe I’ll make it tomorrow. Today we have an abstract instead.

“When Doves Cry”, 8×8 inches or 20×20 centimeter.

Today my mind has been preoccupied with thoughts about strength. I see myself as a strong person and I often end up around people who lean on me for support. That’s fine. But when it comes to finding someone I can spend my life with, the gap can’t be too great. So on my mind today has been strength. How important it is to do what’s right, not according to tradition or values or society, but having the emotional intelligence to know what’s the healthy thing to do rather than the comfortable. It’s not easy to know and it takes time. Still, a lot of people I talk to know what they should do yet they avoid doing it.. because the in-laws will be mean, because somehow they’ll become tolerant of all the things that drive them nuts about the other person, because the other person will surely change now finally, because the sweet memories they had creates a nostalgic forcefield too great to escape, or because what if they can turn back time and magically become people they used to be with needs they used to have. Sometimes it’s a sign there’s one more thing they need to try before facing up to looking at the present with clear eyes. Sometimes it means they’ll spend the rest of their life in comfortable rewardless mediocrity.

So that’s what ran through my mind while splashing paint today. Just the sadness and futility of it all. And me, looking for someone brave, who won’t make excuses forever or settles. I can’t imagine how crap it would feel to be on the receiving end of that, to be with someone who’s with you because they think they don’t deserve better or doesn’t dare change their life. So I’m looking for someone brave who will properly work on a relationship but won’t stay just to make me happy. Honesty hurts but dang, the alternative is worse.

And in the mean while, strong or not, I’m in a dove crying mood tonight. Who knows what tomorrow will bring.

I was trying to use a paint thinner for acrylics for this painting but I think I grabbed the wrong bottle. I don’t know how it will effects its longevity or the paint. Drats.

Day 19: My Kind of Music

This painting started out the way music looks. Hills and valleys of sound and quiet..

..And then I felt the need for colour and water and here we are. It’s on a box canvas (like they all are) and the borders are painted black. I’ll post more pictures once I’m putting them up for sale.

Usually I like my paintings fairly smooth, not very many visible dry strokes, but for this I wanted something rough. It called out to me: rough. And dark. But light. A mixed up kind of day, huh.

Day 14: Mordant

Today’s song while painting is Amanda Palmer and the Grand Theft Orchestra – Smile.

 

I started this one imagining I’d add sharp edges with yellow but I wanted to use up the red and white I had left from painting the night before. And then it turned all pink. And I thought to myself “What a clichĂ©! On Valentine’s Day!”. But I left it alone. No yellow.

It doesn’t feel like I’ll ever be in the mood for painting sunny landscapes. Or maybe I’ll paint it to escape into somewhere else sometime. Every day is painful, maybe painting will help or maybe it won’t.

Day 9: “It’s Getting Frosty”

The camera I’m using to capture these paintings is getting worse and worse. Working on fixing that asap, it’s getting ridiculously difficult to get a fairly accurate representation of the painting uploaded.

In the spirit of today.. It’s getting frosty. 20×20 centimeter / 8×8 inches canvas, acrylic painting. This one has a double purpose, made both for the Colour_Collective on Twitter (theme: delft blue) and the 30 paintings in 30 days challenge.

Day 5: The Moon Void in Scorpio

You know that feeling when you really don’t feel like painting, something just doesn’t sit right.. I usually follow that feeling. And when I don’t, this happens.

 

 

Strangeness. Warped stuff. The kind of feeling you get when the moon is void in Scorpio, if you know what I mean. That aimless sort of lost in the depth of whirls of subconscious flow and conscious processing. Ah I don’t know. It’s been a weird day, too much feeling, too much aimlessly wondering what I’m supposed to do. Hopefully the next few days will be clearer as I need to paint ahead so that I’m not stuck doing a painting every day even if I’m falling down tired or falling down depressed.

Day 3: Looking for Rivendell

This one isn’t quite finished. I’d stay up but the world is getting fuzzy and the fuzz doesn’t go away even though I blink and blink.

I liked it better when it had a lot more cool blue tones (see below). It’s just not coming together right tonight. Feels like I should have left it alone after I took the selfie with it. I tried to complicate matters and now it’s quite a different painting.

It’s that darned yellow again. I love adding yellow too much.

Selfie with work in progress

Posted a selfie with the painting in progress to Instagram. Calling this painting “Looking for Rivendell” because that’s how it felt when I saw it with the cool blues and enticing light. I’ll continue working on it later, right now I need to snooze, it’s almost 2 am.

Day 2 – The Return of the Hare (Imbolc)

It’s the 2nd of February and some pagans celebrate Imbolc now. I felt the presence of the Luna Moon Hare and the magical glow of a world that will awaken towards spring.. in a while.. in a long while. Spring here in the north doesn’t start to show until April but still, it will soon be time to prepare seeds and pre-grow plants for the next season.

Although the scene is supposed to have a mystical darkness, I wonder if it went too dark. I’m watching the colour dry and slightly change and it worries me. Imbalance will be easier to see in the morning in daylight. Painting around midnight is pretty terrible despite my brighter than usual lamps that I have for my plants and to help against Seasonal Affective Disorder.

It’s another 20×20 centimeter / 8×8 inches acrylic painting for the 30 paintings in 30 days challenge.

Look at how purdy the palette turned out. The colours are especially clear because of all the water..

..and here is the painting in progress, the early stage where I’m getting a feel for the mood and what wants to appear on the canvas.

First day of 30 Paintings in 30 Days

I swore to myself I wouldn’t make a yellow toned painting.

I made a yellowish painting anyway.

It looks so much like my usual style that I don’t know how I feel about it yet. I might want to add a bit more blue. Or not. I really need to see it in daylight. What do you think, keep it more naturally green or add some fantasy blue?

Acrylic paint on 8×8 inches / 20×20 centimeter canvas, made for the 30 Paintings in 30 Days challenge.

30 Paintings in 30 Days: “Let’s Talk”

While the Hatter is on hold I started on a series of smaller (about 10 x 10 cm / 8 x 8 inches) paintings. This one will double for the first #Colour_Collective challenge of the year on Twitter. The challenge colour is Aureolin (yellow) and the participation date for that is Friday evening. The plan is to have this painting be joined by three other paintings with a singular colour theme. Can’t wait to get started on the next ones!   Let's Talk